Have you ever felt as though what ever you seem to do always turns out to be wrong in someone else’s eyes. Well lately that’s been just the thing happening around me.
Three weeks ago I was in an accident, where my husband was sitting in the passenger seat and my parent at the back seat. Yes, I was driving. In short, I stepped on my emergency brake cause this arse you call a truck driver just swerved in front of me in the right lane just to overtake a slower truck in front of him from the left lane. And as you can imagine things got messy from there. My husband was badly injured, where as I was trying to hold myself together to be strong for him. Even though all I wanted to do was cry. Anyways, my husband is still alive and I want to thank God for that.
But since the accident, I’ve been trying to get myself confident again about driving. Cause every time I sit in the car, all I seem to be imagining is the incident that happen the few weeks back.
And today would be the first day I drove myself to work. On the way, I guess God wanted to test me again. Right in front of me a trailer truck swerved and turned a corner right in front of me. I braked but apparently according to my dad who was sitting beside me that I didn’t stop early enough. So all I did was kept my mouth shut and my head focused. And I guess even that wasn’t enough, cause he kept reminding me over and over and all I wanted to do was cry. Ugh!
On the way back from work, another trial from God. As another trailer truck came in from a junction onto the main road where I was going straight on the left lane. I don’t know why but it’s either that I am attracted to merging trucks or are they just a pain and are attracted to me. So I braked and again according to my dad I didn’t brake early enough and he started whining at how careless I drove.
I don’t know how this is helping me get the confidence to start driving again. I feel as though I can’t be bothered driving anymore. So I told my husband I think I might just catch the public transport from now on’s. You want to know what he replied? He said, “Your so egoistic!”.
Hence this entry, asking you, other bloggers and readers, what your take on this is.
Should I ?
A. Stay calm, listen to them whine and whinge about my driving till my confident is boosted back up.
B. Tell them to shut up. The accident that happen three weeks ago wasn’t any of my fault.
C. Just catch the public transportation to work.
D. Put my EGO in a safe keeping box.
Please leave your answers in the comment box. I’d really appreciate to hear your input.